Looking back at the past 6 months since I was diagnosed, I have decided that loosing my hair was one of the hardest parts of having cancer and going through chemo.
This was after I had lost about 1/3rd of my hair and had decided to cut it short to avoid having long pieces of hair all over the house, my clothes and car. This was after my first round of chemo.
My hair continued to thin, but I was able to pull it back to hide the balding on top of my head.
I had Jeff take a picture of just one night of what my piles of hair looked liked. I wasn't able to look at all the hair I was loosing or I would break down and cry.
More thinning of my hair. At this point I was wearing baseball hats all the time. I never thought it would hurt so bad to have my hair fall out.....it was a mix between burning and stinging pain to even lightly touch my hair.
Looking back at this picture I never realized I would be loosing my precious eyelashes soon after.
This is in October/November.
My skin color got really gray and towards the end of chemo in November my eyelashes and eyebrows started falling out and after finishing chemo in December, they all fell out! It was an awful feeling to not have any eyebrows or eyelashes. I attempted to wear false eyelashes for a few weeks but decided it wasn't worth the hassle to glue them on all the time.
I had the most difficult time completely getting rid of my hair by shaving it because I was trying to hold onto every last bit of my hair. I finally let my mom cut the long pieces I had when I was reading a blog of a lady who was in my same shoes and her family told her she looked like Golum in Lord of the rings. That was the turning point for me...I couldn't stand the little pieces anymore.
This is what I look like without drawing my eyebrows on and without eyelashes and hair.
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